Realizations at 4 AM

You really come into terms with life when you're all alone. Knowing you're still living does feel great but knowing everyone else is sleeping doesn't. I tend to evaluate my life at this time. Its 4am and my thoughts aren't about going to sleep. Just me here, planted in front of a screen writing my thoughts. I keep thinking my life is like a video game. Of course, I can't use cheat codes but I do know the shortcuts and walk through to it. I begin to realize the patterns of people's emotions and how they begin to act against others. I realize how ugly some people really are and how they manipulate human emotion to get what they want. I see how teenage girls post pictures of themselves to get their friends approval just because their self-esteem is in the gutter. How teenage boys talk about how big their penis is and how they can get girls yet you can easily tell they masturbate themselves to sleep. One thing I never understood is why everyone is beginning  to look like a replica of someone else. Snap back hats and V-Necks are in but it looks like most of these guys have no class. I rather dress in suit than look like someone else. I wonder how these kids can sleep at night knowing they are just something superficial. I wonder how it would feel to wake up and realize that everyone looked just like you. It's sad waking up knowing you lived in a generation where nothing good was made. Where one day I'll look back and spit in the face of what was my past. It's really sad to see that we are all slowly rotting.