Take Everything Redux...

Take Everything.
Take every light.
Take every chance you have.
Every rider.
Every stop sign.
Every spin on your legs like it was your last.
Breathe.
Live.
In the end have no regrets.

Take Everything..

This simply inspires me...

That Moment...

In which two people say that they are going to say hi to each other but in the end no one really says hi. Makes me feel like a little boy again cause I can't say Hi to someone. Ironically, shes told me the same. Its like a cat and mouse game. I wonder how this is gonna end up.

And So...

Normality has begun. Wake up to The Smiths. Go to sleep with The Doors. Wake up. Go to school and try to make something good out of myself and back home. Everything sucks. No excitement in my life. Just simply boring Palucha again. Nothing to live for and nothing to die for. Back to normality.

My Indian Summer

Life seems like its slowly fading but Morrison's voice on a Saturday morning just gives me goosebumps and makes me feel nostalgic...

Risking things.

Today I took a giant risk. I took a red light and I took the risk of getting my life taken away. It wasn't any intersection either. I was inches away from getting hit by a car. Literally INCHES away. But like nothing I continued my journey. Some may even say I took the light like a fucking BOSS but the reality is that I should really stop riding my bicycle before I do something stupid and actually get hit again.

One of My Turns...

The only song that could explain how I feel...

The things I do.

I do the things I do because I was told as a child to never follow anyone. A lot of people don't like how I am because no one likes to be the honest one and rather hide themselves than be the loud one. I tend to be that guy. The loud one of the pack telling people the things I don't and do like about them. People tend to call me an asshole but I just like calling myself honest. Ironically, I don't like people telling me what is right and wrong. I don't like the fact that my so called "Friends" criticize me for who I hangout with because the person I'm with doesn't get along with them. I enjoyed myself today. Yeah it had ups and downs but I was happy to hangout with my best friend and someone really special to me and in the end what counts is that I'm happy for who I am and who I'm with..

So tonight..

Might change my life. A bicycle ride that happens once a year. Its called C.R.A.N.K. MOB. This typically has 400 or more cyclists taking over the streets with music and fun. Also today is my friend's second bicycle ride. Last night he rode The Ride With No Name and felt like he needed to ride more so I'm taking him tonight. I don't know why but last night I felt like I was missing someone tho. Either way, today is gonna be fucking fantastic with my friends.

So there's this girl...

I like her and all. We started talking recently and like yeah  I kinda like her. She's really down to Earth and basically likes everything I like. The thing is that I get nervous to talk to her. I somewhat don't know what to say so I just basically freeze up. I don't understand why I get like this around girls.. Its weird. Either way I'm gonna keep on talking to her :D

Fixed..

 Its been a little over a year since I've had my track bike. One speed, no derailleurs, 1 brake, skinny wheels and a bunch of stickers on it. Her name is Irony and there is a simple story behind it. When I got my first bike it was a road bike. Many people asked me if I was gonna make it into a "fixie". I hated the term. I hated everything about fixed-gear bikes. I hate colorful bikes taking over the streets with kids skidding crazily while I rode my bike on Critical Mass or other rides. After I got hit on my bike I got another rode bike. I didn't like it at first but after awhile i became in love with it. Sadly, It got stolen after having it for a few months. I was devastated. No bike, no money and no hope. In May, my parents get their tax returns and I didn't know this until my father one day mysteriously told me "Hey, lets go look at bikes". I was shocked but I went along with it. Not sure what was going on I searched through craigslist and eBay for bikes and stuff. I couldn't find a road bike due to the fact that they were over 300 dollars and my dad told me there was a limit. When I got home that day my mother told me they she got her tax return and I understood completely. After I asked a few friends about decent bikes for cheap I was left with one option. A Black Windsor Track bike for about 289. I sold some Bose headphones and I got some extra money. I ordered the bike and within a week *POOF* my new bicycle was finally at home. I bought it a Euro-Asia Superstar cog, some Profile Design T2 Wing base bars and a Dura-Ace lockring. From that day on I became fixed...

Strangers, again

My friend told me to search this vid on YouTube. Made me think a lot.

A little bit of Orbison

An Eyedea to fix things.

"And I'm no different I live in conflict and contradiction but it can be so beautiful
when I don't reject what lies within
It's beautiful the way agony connects us to the living
I think of the world when I hurt, and keep on existing in the now"

Interbike!!!!! maybe next year :(

So I originally was gonna go to Interbike this year and have some fun in Vegas but due to the fact that this is my senior year in high school I really can't be slacking off. Either way here is a vid of last year's Mash race.

Black..

Is what I'll see in a few minutes. Just the darkness that will fill my room and the thoughts that will fill my mind. Its the most difficult place anyone can live in. I stare at my ceiling, roll over, and sit up on my bed. Its the worst of the worst! I hate going to it because I can't escape it. It happens every night now. I just wish everything was back to the way it was before the darkness came in.

Life Lesson from My Enemy.

Last night I got the biggest life lesson from my father. I rarely talk to him. Yeah he lives with me and all but I rarely acknowledge him. But last night I asked him to sit down with me because I needed his guidance. So we both sat on my bed while he listened to me. I told him I didn't feel like going to school anymore. Told him I felt knots on my chest and I had a hard time eating. I told him I had one of the worst days of school ever and I told him that I got kicked out of class. Yet when I told him the cause of the problem he told me a simple " I know." He said the reason people come and go is because the best is yet to come. He told me I was still young and one day I'll look back and think of how stupid I was. He basically told me to finally be a man and quit living in a fairy tale. But the words that really hit me was when he said "The best is yet to come."

Tyler again..

"I'm not, sayin, just to go out and do some stupid shit. Commit crimes, all I'm tryna tell you is, do what the fuck you want Stand for what the fuck you believe in and don't let NOBODY tell you you can't do what the fuck you want. I'm a fucking unicorn, the FUCK to anybody who say I'm not Wolf, Gang"

Get the fuck over it.

Today was the first day of school. Very shitty. Bunch of freshmen everywhere roaming the hall. I got shitty classes. But the highlight of the day was when I was in my 4th Period. Right when the class is about to end I get a text message from my ex just simply saying that i'm a piece of shit. Confused about what she sent me I asked her. She said that I did something with a girl. At first I denied it to everyone but now I'm actually admitting of what I did. Big deal tho. I was a single man when all this happened plus it was when I got heart broken over someone. Either way, I really don't care now. She basically took it as if I cheated on her. Then again she does over exaggerate everything.. In the end.....GET THE FUCK OVER IT.

Sleep Deprived..

I can't sleep. I busted an all nighter. I recorded my actions on a Flip cam. I basically recorded a movie about emotional bullshit. It's been a long fucking night. I can't think straight. The left side of my brain hurts. I can't stop thinking about someone. I don't know why but I just can't get her out of my head. My best friend is trying to sleep but he keeps waking up. So much things I want to express but I can't unless I actually post the footage that I took in the camera.

Last Week

 I'm about to go back into school. Spent my last week like it was last week. Today is day 5 of drinking straight with my brother. Well he ain't my brother but he is my bestfriend. Barely met him last year but I know a lot about this guy and he know a ton about me. Now both of us are in the same room using 2 different computers. Its 1:30 on a Tuesday morning. We are both bored as fuck hating on everything because we've run out of money and liquor. Now we are here like 2 losers here stuck in a room being all depressed over our exes. I guess thats how life is. Regardless, today is the last day of vacation. Tomorrow i'm back in school. Hopefully everything goes well..

Bored of my bike.

I'm getting bored of riding fixed. I missed riding on my road bike. I want to sell my bike but then again I have so many memories with it. Its never malfunctioned on me. Its basically the best bike I've had. I just simply want a new bike with gears. Hopefully, I can get my hands on a BMC Streetracer by the end of this year even if its like a grand something.

Superman

Loving this song.