Pushing everyone away..

Is the best thing to do. I don't see myself doing anything in life besides joining the military. Today I snapped on my mom because she wants me to go to college. I'm sick of hearing how my cousins this and that. I'm not them. I rather just join the army and get out of LA. Don't see hope for tomorrow nor the day after that. I feel like i'm doing the right thing by pushing everyone away.