The Carousel II

I've recently stepped out of being with someone. Typically I'd be bothered from being alone but my emotions towards other human beings has died down. I've quit caring about others and focused on myself. It's been like this for the past 2 years. I honestly don't know what love is anymore. I date someone and get tired of being with them. Sexual relations are not even worth anything to me. I don't enjoy feeling the warmth of anyone else. I've been going round and round, looking for that place in which I felt loved. I've been looking for someone who'd I'd enjoy going out with, I'd ride my bike with her, go look at art galleries with her, go to the arcade to play Midnight Maximum Tune with her, and be proud that I'd be in love with this woman. I had this at one point in my life, but I feel the outcome of that has made me become selfish and not care towards any woman I've come across. I should be alone. I've hurt too many in the past 2 years. They don't like to admit it but every woman has that glitter in their eyes when they find that someone special and I've seen that glitter go away...